I'm a little slow getting started it seems. Or maybe things are just slowing down enough in real life so that I can stop juggling so hard and it's feeling a little easier. Either way, I'm seriously grateful to once again be able to focus on passing medical school without having to worry about if everyone is going to still be alive next week. It's amazing how I thought things were so hard starting off first year, and then life hit the fan and it got even worse. Now that things are relaxing, it kinda feels like I'm skating a little easier. If you've been reading my blog since the beginning, you might remember I compared medical school to being dragged behind an out of control 18-wheeler while wearing roller blades, except they were untied. I think I might have gotten one tied. But just one. As the dust settles, I've been able to look around and pick up some stuff that I dropped. I joined a few clubs in the beginning of first year, and pretty much couldn't make any of the meetings or events for a while there. Now I'm picking some of those back up and trying to be more involved.
Year two doesn't seem like it's any easier as far as content, especially since we are adding board study to our plate. But I have found that it's not as difficult as first year. Again, some of that may be that life has evened out, but I think we are building on a lot of stuff we learned last year, and it makes a little more sense at this point. It's hard to believe that we only have three weeks left in this block. This is our last block of anatomy lab, so we will be having a memorial service for the cadavers in a few weeks. I'm really excited for that, because it will be a way of saying thank you for the tremendous gift of education that we have received. I love the idea of celebrating the donors.
As things are winding down for block 5, I don't have the usual surge of nerves that comes with wrapping up different classes. I used to worry about having to remediate, and it really tied me in knots in the last few weeks of a block. I decided last block that I had no intention of riding that close to the rails going forward, and so far it has worked out well.
I don't want to sound like everything is going perfect, and I'm just so smart and all. Medical school has been a struggle, and finding a way to balance doing well and actually having a life at the same time has been a huge challenge. Balance is probably the hardest lesson to learn, and it can be rough when something comes out of left field and knocks you on your behind. It's nice to be able to function in balance, and you appreciate it all the more when you've lived out of balance for a long period of time. But I'm also really nervous to just take a big breath and relax in it.
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